Hey ya'll! It has been a while since my last post, the reason being is that lately I have been struggling to find myself. I know that sounds super dramatic and all. I am not going through depression or anything like that but I have been noticing a lack of love towards myself, and a lot of negativity.
Lately I have not been happy with my appearance. I feel like since I got married I have gained just a couple of pounds (we always eat out lol). I catch myself getting all upset when I see a skinny girl because I don't feel "thin" anymore. Pretty dumb, I know! I see girls with beautiful hair and I get sad because I think my hair is dead and gross looking since I have been dyeing it for a while now. I started thinking others were better people than me. I often found myself criticizing myself and compare myself to others. I literally started thinking something was wrong with me. Like WHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF!? But honestly everyone AT LEAST once in their life have compared themselves to others. Right? If you say no, I think you're lying haha. I personally don't think there is anything wrong with comparing yourself to someone. I think it is completely normal if it ever happens. However, It is not okay if you continue to live your life doing that.
Negativity is so exhausting, and serves no purpose yet it is so common in our daily mindset and most of us don't even realize it!
Leave all of those negative thoughts behind. Accept who you are. Realize that if there is something about yourself that you don't like, you have the opportunity to change it because you are in control!
Guys, life is about growing and learning. Be grateful that you are alive. Be grateful of who you are. Start loving YOU. You were beautifully made to be YOU. Instead of criticizing everything about yourself, keep pushing yourself to be a better person. That is all that really matters, honestly. It doesn't matter if someone is prettier than you, or has better hair than you, has more things than you, or if you think they are better human than you, whatever the case may be. LOVE YOURSELF! BE HAPPY! BE POSITIVE!
Now I'm not writing this because I think I have it all figured out. In fact, I don't. I'm still working on bettering myself and being more positive. Trust me! My husband can tell you that! At times he catches me being such a downer and negative and gives me a look like "come on Laura, you are better than this". It helps that he is so positive and uplifting all the time. You definitely need people like that in your life.
I challenge you today, and every day to tune into your thoughts. Notice all the negative ones and try to turn them into positive ones, turn your hates into loves, your complaints into gratitude. It is not easy but I bet you If you try your life will get 10x better.
Thanks for hearing out my emotional rant guys! Hope It's a good read for you!
Much love, Laura